THE OPPOSITE SIDE

This is a time in my life where I really see the opposite side of everything. All of the opinions that I've held over the years, and all of the judgments I've held about myself and other people, all of these created karma.

I think if you really hold onto a belief too long and/or too tightly it leaves marks; it shapes you. You have to fill in the negative space; create dissonance among order.

Sometimes you have to move completely into the other side. You have to become the thing that restricted you. If you were the victim, you become a predator; if you were the robber, you become a cop. It may not even be equal in magnitude or in length, but you will find yourself, somehow, on the other side of a familiar situation.

If you offended me, I must now offend you. If you dumped me when I loved you so much, I must now leave a lover of equal ardor. If I made a deal with the devil, I must now go to lure my soul away from Paradise.

The great thing about karma is that once you recognise that it is happening -- even if it was a mistake, or you were misunderstood, or you weren't aware-- you can correct it. It's like playing a video game and finding a secret key or door or extra energy . It speeds up progress to the next level.

If, like me, you are going through a time in your life where you are changing sides, or conversely, hearing the other side at full volume and with a lot of reaction, just relax. Beliefs are just the opinions that run our operating systems. Opinions are just choices and observations, and those can both be changed.

The thing that I keep learning, over and over again, is that the more I demand from myself in terms of releasing old behaviours and patterns, loving myself unconditionally, and learning to see life in a new and positive way, the more I find myself in new and surprising places.

Like the opposite side of the fence. And not the side that has the greener grass. No, this is the fence that used to be the line that I couldn't cross; the boundary that I saw as a guardian of the very edge of what was "right."

But what used to be "right" was also that I was a failure, unloved, uncared for, in a dangerous world that would never be "right". And that things would not ever really get better, and the best that I could hope for was to hang on to my dreams and never let them go.

So if I must sacrifice a few opinions to get to live beyond such a limited and damaged worldview, so be it. And if it means that I have to see the less than perfect parts of myself, so be it. Because if everything is possible- even that I could hold the opposite of a dearly cherished "belief"-- then I can live in a safe and caring world, and I am doing the best I can, and things will change as I change.

Sometimes I think our best beliefs need to be stretched, like our muscles. They have to stay flexible to really support us properly- so sometimes that means reach all the way up, as far as you can go. Being able to stretch out and touch the opposite side keeps the muscle healthy. It keeps us in a position to always feel the kind of unity and wholeness we call "happiness."

PRAISES, THANKS, & BLESSINGS!!!
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